So this week has been different from any other. I have had a lot more energy even though I was tired. It was also one of the busiest times. Monday was fairly relaxing as compared to the seminar weekend. I came home and just relaxed after work. Tuesday was a life success interview where I was asked what I discovered about myself and how I would fulfill my goals. Wednesday was my graduation. The people that said they'd come didn't make it except for Kristin and my-key. Yesterday I saw The King and I with one of my students. It's nice to get some culture. Today I worked again but I made a mistake and napped at 3:30 when I came home. Now I'm semi-awake. It's an awake where you don't want to do anything, but you still can't sleep.
I just am interested that this week, despite being tired, I have had plenty of energy. It was really funny because on Monday I was fairly energetic and my students were quite the opposite. I literally made them get up and jump up and down and yell "I'm excited!" three times. I must say that it worked. They thought I was absolutely crazy, but I had to tell them that the energy was very different and they could tell. Another change is that I think I've been walking straighter and with more confidence. Sighted folks who have seen me, what do you think? I guess out of all my readers, that means Kristin. LOL. I didn't even really think about that. I have also been coming up with myriad goals to get done. I want to record a demo and have already taken my first action step which was picking out the songs. I would like to create a whole new braille curriculum with more variety in the exercises including paragraphs/stories with content, word searches, proofreading, dictation, and essay topics. I would also show them elevators, calendars, menus, and other stuff that's in the current curriculum, but I'd make them from real places and I'd consolidate it all into one book. I'd include all my memory tricks for the alphabet and punctuation. I'd do a vocabulary scaenger hunt for the Grade 2 learners so they could learn to use the dictionary. I feel like I need to leave JBA in order to do this. I mean, I talked to my supervisor and she's unwilling to let me do this because this other awful curriculum we're using is free. I just feel like it's boring the students. I feel like I'm losing motivation when I get to a certain point because it's all fill-in-the-blank! Anyway, that's my second goal.
My third goal is one that could be easier. I want to fundraise $3600 so I can go to the advanced PSI seminars and learn to be a better leader and overall stronger person. Any ideas? One of my students said she would call some people she knew to get help. This is NOT a monetary solicitation. This is asking for ideas.
This weekend is going to be all about Leena and her relaxation. I am going to have a voice lesson at around noon I think and then I'm going to a friend's wedding. Sunday I am hosting Sunday serice and then I'm resting at home. Monday I have absolutely nothing planned! I think I need a definition of nothing planned. Chris invited me, but his mom said no. I don't know how I'm going to do this. Okay. I need to stop the limiting talk and figure it out. I just have to tell him the truth.
Okay. This is randomness, but I need to express my beliefs on a few things. One of those things is religion. I feel very confused as far as that goes. I feel like so many people put an emphasis on the founder and not the teachings. For me, if I go somewhere that doesn't contradict the teachings of a religion, but never mentions the religion, founder, etc., I feel that it is still good. Jesus said that we would know something good by the fruit it bears, right? Maybe I'm out of context, and if so please correct me, but it seems like things like a Muslim-run charity organization or something would be a good thing even if it doesn't directly happen in the name of Baha'u'llah or Jesus or Moses. In my case, I believe if there were a religion which would worship God and not focus so heavily on its founder, that's what I would be. This is all about study and prayer and witnessing people. Sometimes, we get so lost in who we gollow that we lose sight of the father of us all. Isn't that the most important thing? Our creator and what he wants us to do? The Word of God is an undeniable truth, and the people who received it are great examples to follow, but it's the Word that they followed that is of paramount importance. It's about practicing what you preach instead of doing something and then praising the founder for not getting caught doing it.
I can already hear a few voices, and no, this is not meant as accusatory toward anyone. This is my own societal observation which, as a person living in the U.S., I feel free to reveal. If you are offended, my apologies, but NOT a retraction. I ask that you not give me the power to offend you and just take these words for what they are: my opinion. I am making a promise to myself that I will not follow blindly along like a sheep in the herd just to feel accepted. I am an outspoken, honest, opinionated person and will not hide that part of me any longer. In any case, I ask that before criticism, you would reflect on what I have said. At the same time, I love discussion so please send what you think to me. I have no problems with anyone's opinions of what I write. I only ask that this not be considered as some crazy reflection of my character.
As for me, I believe I am a person who cannot praise anyone but God himself. I do everything in the name of God. I feel a little confused because I don't think there is one religion that isn't focused on the founder or considering the teachings and Word of God to be the teachings of the founder. So that's my opinion. Now I'm a little tired and am going to go back to sleep so I'm refreshed and energetic in the morning for my voice lesson. Peace and happy trails to all.
Leena
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Monday, May 18, 2009
Shameless Plugs
Hello to all my loyal readers. For those I don't hear from anymore, I miss you and I miss your feedback. For those who do reply, thank you for your honesty, support, and most of all, your friendship. Please know that I mean this completely. And now for the updates and promotions.
This weekend was an emotional roller coaster. That's an incredible understatement. Since Darius, I think I cried in front of people who were semistrangers once and that was at the Baha'i Conference. Otherwise, I rarely let that show to friends, let alone anyone else. I think this weekend I cried in front of my classmates four times! Well, I know for sure three, but another time few times I came close. I don't remember if I cried Saturday night when I left. I think only one person besides me who reads this will understand why I said that. And I'm not telling because I can see the benefit for every person to go to PSI seminars. So that's my first plug. LOL. Wednesday evening is a guest event for the seminar. It's a surprise activity and my graduation. It is also a time to enroll in the seminar for a significant discount. Anyone who wants more information, please feel free to e-mail me by either replying to this post or sending a different e-mail all together.
One of the activities we did had to do with goal setting. We each had to set a 90-day goal. In 90 days, I will record a demo, contact and send it to 10 studios, and follow up. My other 90-day goal is to attend the two advanced courses. One is for life success and one is leadership. I am trying to fundraise to get the money. My idea, thanks to my groupmates, is to find places where I can sing and see if people will donate. If anyone can offer support of any kind, which includes ideas, assistance, etc. it would all be greatly appreciated. This whole thing was such a worthwhile thing for me and I am so grateful that I got to have this experience. Just so you know, I do not earn anything for having people come. I don't think I'd be doing this if I got something out of it because then it would be a trick IMHO.
Well, I need to sign off. I know it was short, but I have class soon. Have a wonderful day.
Leena
This weekend was an emotional roller coaster. That's an incredible understatement. Since Darius, I think I cried in front of people who were semistrangers once and that was at the Baha'i Conference. Otherwise, I rarely let that show to friends, let alone anyone else. I think this weekend I cried in front of my classmates four times! Well, I know for sure three, but another time few times I came close. I don't remember if I cried Saturday night when I left. I think only one person besides me who reads this will understand why I said that. And I'm not telling because I can see the benefit for every person to go to PSI seminars. So that's my first plug. LOL. Wednesday evening is a guest event for the seminar. It's a surprise activity and my graduation. It is also a time to enroll in the seminar for a significant discount. Anyone who wants more information, please feel free to e-mail me by either replying to this post or sending a different e-mail all together.
One of the activities we did had to do with goal setting. We each had to set a 90-day goal. In 90 days, I will record a demo, contact and send it to 10 studios, and follow up. My other 90-day goal is to attend the two advanced courses. One is for life success and one is leadership. I am trying to fundraise to get the money. My idea, thanks to my groupmates, is to find places where I can sing and see if people will donate. If anyone can offer support of any kind, which includes ideas, assistance, etc. it would all be greatly appreciated. This whole thing was such a worthwhile thing for me and I am so grateful that I got to have this experience. Just so you know, I do not earn anything for having people come. I don't think I'd be doing this if I got something out of it because then it would be a trick IMHO.
Well, I need to sign off. I know it was short, but I have class soon. Have a wonderful day.
Leena
Friday, May 15, 2009
Downright Energetic
Greetings and salutations to all my loyal readers. Yes, it's 6:32 A.M. and I feel downright energetic. Let's start with the weekly update and then I'll tell you why I'm energetic. You'll just have to keep reading. Hahaha.
Monday, Kristin and I had a voice lesson. She's trying to help me pick out songs for a demo. I have four good songs so far and I only need three. Yay! I'm really excited. Tuesday was a day of relaxation. I went to the student body meeting then because I was the faculty advisor. I had just gotten elected. Wednesday was very long.
On Wednesday, I had six periods. Well, I was supposed to. Third period I was able to attend something called the Transition Council which is to talk about helping students transition into college/the workforce. I was representing Blind Students of California. I am currently the vice-president. After classes, I went to the dorm. We had burritos and chocolate cake. They don't usually go together, but they were really good separately. Then we played bingo. A few people won including myself. Then I had Spanish class. I had three non-Native speaking students and two who came to help. Wait. I had like five people. Some were just late. It was sort of a good class. We can't seem to stay on topic. LOL. I got home and relaxed until Kristin got home. At about 10 something I went out and we talked about a lot of stuff until like 1:30 or so. Oops. Then I remembered I needed to pack for the weekend. I packed, charged everything, and went to bed.
Yesterday was wonderful. I went to work although I got a lecture from Access because I'd overslept again. I taught and we had fun in women's group. Julie asked me to run it when she's not here. Of course, I agreed. Then it was time for the PSI seminar. It started out with Access being so late that another friend's Access driver ended up taking me almost an hour after my reserved time. Thankfully, he got me there in time to put my things in my room and go register. Then I went to the seminar. It was amazing. We talked about behaviors and qualities we have and stuff like that. They taught us a tool to help us relax and have more energy. Since I want you all to go to this, except for the ones who already have of course, I won't go into detail about any of the exercises. That is the reason for me being downright energetic even though I had about three hours of sleep total. You know what though? When my head hit the pillow, I was out in 5 or 10 minutes. It's been a while since I fell asleep before I finished listening to the first Odyssey episode I turned on. For those who don't know, Adventures in Odyssey is from Focus on the Family. It is Christian-based radio dramas about a fictional town. All the episodes either tell a story about someone famous or teach a lesson from the teachings of Jesus. Anyway, the seminar goes today from 6 to midnight. It also goes all day tomorrow and Sunday. I'm so excited! It's already been so amazingly transforming. I am, for the first time in my life, confident and at peace.
This morning I got up on time for the first time in a long time. I called the front desk and asked for directions. The rooms and the front of the lobby are in different buildings. She gave directions and I did it all by myself!!! The driver was right on time and brought me straight from the hotel to work. I got there before the building opened so I walked. I walked around the grass five or six times. It's this kinda big quad that goes from right past the cafeteria to right past the gym. It felt so good and calming. I've never had this much energy at 5 and 6 in the morning. I never want this feeling to end. Now, this isn't to say that I'm not tired because I could take a nap right now. But I have a lot of energy and I don't want to take a nap right now. I think I will when I get back to the hotel though. I want to keep my mind clear and open for this evening's work. I think I just got the most sound sleep I've ever had since before Louisiana.
Well, dear readers, take care. May God bless each and every one of you. I can hear Celine's voice telling me that that's redundant, but I don't care. LOL. Shoot. Maybe it's my own voice. Anyway, peace, joy, and happiness to you all.
Leena
Monday, Kristin and I had a voice lesson. She's trying to help me pick out songs for a demo. I have four good songs so far and I only need three. Yay! I'm really excited. Tuesday was a day of relaxation. I went to the student body meeting then because I was the faculty advisor. I had just gotten elected. Wednesday was very long.
On Wednesday, I had six periods. Well, I was supposed to. Third period I was able to attend something called the Transition Council which is to talk about helping students transition into college/the workforce. I was representing Blind Students of California. I am currently the vice-president. After classes, I went to the dorm. We had burritos and chocolate cake. They don't usually go together, but they were really good separately. Then we played bingo. A few people won including myself. Then I had Spanish class. I had three non-Native speaking students and two who came to help. Wait. I had like five people. Some were just late. It was sort of a good class. We can't seem to stay on topic. LOL. I got home and relaxed until Kristin got home. At about 10 something I went out and we talked about a lot of stuff until like 1:30 or so. Oops. Then I remembered I needed to pack for the weekend. I packed, charged everything, and went to bed.
Yesterday was wonderful. I went to work although I got a lecture from Access because I'd overslept again. I taught and we had fun in women's group. Julie asked me to run it when she's not here. Of course, I agreed. Then it was time for the PSI seminar. It started out with Access being so late that another friend's Access driver ended up taking me almost an hour after my reserved time. Thankfully, he got me there in time to put my things in my room and go register. Then I went to the seminar. It was amazing. We talked about behaviors and qualities we have and stuff like that. They taught us a tool to help us relax and have more energy. Since I want you all to go to this, except for the ones who already have of course, I won't go into detail about any of the exercises. That is the reason for me being downright energetic even though I had about three hours of sleep total. You know what though? When my head hit the pillow, I was out in 5 or 10 minutes. It's been a while since I fell asleep before I finished listening to the first Odyssey episode I turned on. For those who don't know, Adventures in Odyssey is from Focus on the Family. It is Christian-based radio dramas about a fictional town. All the episodes either tell a story about someone famous or teach a lesson from the teachings of Jesus. Anyway, the seminar goes today from 6 to midnight. It also goes all day tomorrow and Sunday. I'm so excited! It's already been so amazingly transforming. I am, for the first time in my life, confident and at peace.
This morning I got up on time for the first time in a long time. I called the front desk and asked for directions. The rooms and the front of the lobby are in different buildings. She gave directions and I did it all by myself!!! The driver was right on time and brought me straight from the hotel to work. I got there before the building opened so I walked. I walked around the grass five or six times. It's this kinda big quad that goes from right past the cafeteria to right past the gym. It felt so good and calming. I've never had this much energy at 5 and 6 in the morning. I never want this feeling to end. Now, this isn't to say that I'm not tired because I could take a nap right now. But I have a lot of energy and I don't want to take a nap right now. I think I will when I get back to the hotel though. I want to keep my mind clear and open for this evening's work. I think I just got the most sound sleep I've ever had since before Louisiana.
Well, dear readers, take care. May God bless each and every one of you. I can hear Celine's voice telling me that that's redundant, but I don't care. LOL. Shoot. Maybe it's my own voice. Anyway, peace, joy, and happiness to you all.
Leena
Monday, May 11, 2009
The Weekend Report (Includes semi-adult content)
Hello readers. Instead of the slightly controversial, this time it's just a regular update. Once again I finished everything I could do before work hours began. I still have to fill out the attendance forms for last week, but since they're not created, I can't really do that. Friday was fairly uneventful. We watched Ana practice for her audition.
Saturday was interesting. I went to Chris's house. He asked me to come before his mom got home from school. Big mistake. I got there fine, but when I did, he had fallen asleep. I called several times and got no response. I waited outside for somewhere between half hour and 45 minutes. Finally, on what must have been the fifth call, he answered the phone. He asked me where I was and I just told him to open the door. LOL. By the time I was inside, his mom had walked through the door. She left pretty fast to get Burger King. She was probably gone for ten or fifteen minutes. Within that time, he tried to um, undress me. I know, for my generation that seems to be nothing. I got worried when I stopped him once and he tried again! I'm sorry, but if you have to tell someone no twice, I get a little nervous. Actually, I got very nervous. My heart was pounding in my chest at double the normal rate and I was breathing kinda shallow fast breaths. I'm pretty sure it was fear and adrenalin. Thankfully, his mom came back. It made me feel so crazy. I guess it's that I don't know if it's just me being afraid, or if what he was doing was the problem. Sometimes I feel afraid to let people get too close to me for fear of getting hurt. The rest of the time went without a problem. We talked and his mom took us to IHOP. I was glad because it was his suggestion instead of mine or hers. Then she brought me home and we watched Legally Blonde 2.
Sunday was a different kind of day. First, I went to Sunday Worship Service. I had volunteered a few months ago to host this particular one. I had the script and was using it to know what to say, and my Braille Sense froze up. I couldn't use it anymore! I was horrified. Thankfully, I remembered the format. Of course, right after the service, I reset it which usually doesn't work. This time, it did work. Obviously, a higher power didn't want me to use the script. LOL. Then we went home.
Of course, yesterday was Mother's Day. Everyone at the house went to be with their families. That is, everyone except me because my family has these brilliant ideas like "Let's meet in Lancaster or Canyon Country." Well, those places are, on weekends anyway, out of reach for the Access of Evil. So that was impossible. I could have met my nana in the valley, but I would have missed worship, I might have been really late, and they all would have told me in what ways I wasn't good enough. It's their favorite pastime. I'm fat, don't come home enough, not modern enough, too conservative, "stuffy and boring", don't dress well, not Mormon, not like so-and-so who dresses well, etc. That's just the list from recent years. Anyway, all this to say I stayed home yesterday.
A little while later, the people doing the teaching work came. It was nice to see them. Per request, I stayed home and said prayers. I wanted to go, but the way the request was made, I didn't necessarily want to say no. It was more like "It would be so great if you would say prayers. We didn't have that last time and I think it's very important." It was probably good that I didn't go only because I felt kinda sad and bad that I actually really didn't want to be with my family in some ways. Anyway, I was really happy when everyone returned. It wasn't long enough though. Nobody came to devotional gathering last night. I went to sleep early and then Carlos's Access came. Ana came and banged on my door scaring the living daylights out of me. She told me Access was there. It was 10 o'clock at night! Well, it appeared that Carlos had planned to come to devotions and had somehow not gotten there. I went back to my room because J. and Kevin called. I had a good conversation and tried to go back to sleep. Well, that didn't seem possible until like 2 something. Oh wait. It was after three!
This morning, something jolted me awake. It's a good thing too because it was 6:59 and my ride was at 7. I woke up to find that I'd missed a call from Celine by a minute. I was so upset because it's been what feels like forever. I called back several times with no luck. I really miss my friends. I miss Anne a lot and Celine and Cristina and Tasha. That's not to say that I don't love my other friends. I just see them and/or talk to them a lot more. I don't think I've seen Cristina since the Children's Theatre Company plays last November. I saw Anne most recently. It was two weeks ago.
Well readers. I have a staff meeting in about 20 minutes. That means that's it for the weekend report. This is Leena saying peace out blog folks.
Saturday was interesting. I went to Chris's house. He asked me to come before his mom got home from school. Big mistake. I got there fine, but when I did, he had fallen asleep. I called several times and got no response. I waited outside for somewhere between half hour and 45 minutes. Finally, on what must have been the fifth call, he answered the phone. He asked me where I was and I just told him to open the door. LOL. By the time I was inside, his mom had walked through the door. She left pretty fast to get Burger King. She was probably gone for ten or fifteen minutes. Within that time, he tried to um, undress me. I know, for my generation that seems to be nothing. I got worried when I stopped him once and he tried again! I'm sorry, but if you have to tell someone no twice, I get a little nervous. Actually, I got very nervous. My heart was pounding in my chest at double the normal rate and I was breathing kinda shallow fast breaths. I'm pretty sure it was fear and adrenalin. Thankfully, his mom came back. It made me feel so crazy. I guess it's that I don't know if it's just me being afraid, or if what he was doing was the problem. Sometimes I feel afraid to let people get too close to me for fear of getting hurt. The rest of the time went without a problem. We talked and his mom took us to IHOP. I was glad because it was his suggestion instead of mine or hers. Then she brought me home and we watched Legally Blonde 2.
Sunday was a different kind of day. First, I went to Sunday Worship Service. I had volunteered a few months ago to host this particular one. I had the script and was using it to know what to say, and my Braille Sense froze up. I couldn't use it anymore! I was horrified. Thankfully, I remembered the format. Of course, right after the service, I reset it which usually doesn't work. This time, it did work. Obviously, a higher power didn't want me to use the script. LOL. Then we went home.
Of course, yesterday was Mother's Day. Everyone at the house went to be with their families. That is, everyone except me because my family has these brilliant ideas like "Let's meet in Lancaster or Canyon Country." Well, those places are, on weekends anyway, out of reach for the Access of Evil. So that was impossible. I could have met my nana in the valley, but I would have missed worship, I might have been really late, and they all would have told me in what ways I wasn't good enough. It's their favorite pastime. I'm fat, don't come home enough, not modern enough, too conservative, "stuffy and boring", don't dress well, not Mormon, not like so-and-so who dresses well, etc. That's just the list from recent years. Anyway, all this to say I stayed home yesterday.
A little while later, the people doing the teaching work came. It was nice to see them. Per request, I stayed home and said prayers. I wanted to go, but the way the request was made, I didn't necessarily want to say no. It was more like "It would be so great if you would say prayers. We didn't have that last time and I think it's very important." It was probably good that I didn't go only because I felt kinda sad and bad that I actually really didn't want to be with my family in some ways. Anyway, I was really happy when everyone returned. It wasn't long enough though. Nobody came to devotional gathering last night. I went to sleep early and then Carlos's Access came. Ana came and banged on my door scaring the living daylights out of me. She told me Access was there. It was 10 o'clock at night! Well, it appeared that Carlos had planned to come to devotions and had somehow not gotten there. I went back to my room because J. and Kevin called. I had a good conversation and tried to go back to sleep. Well, that didn't seem possible until like 2 something. Oh wait. It was after three!
This morning, something jolted me awake. It's a good thing too because it was 6:59 and my ride was at 7. I woke up to find that I'd missed a call from Celine by a minute. I was so upset because it's been what feels like forever. I called back several times with no luck. I really miss my friends. I miss Anne a lot and Celine and Cristina and Tasha. That's not to say that I don't love my other friends. I just see them and/or talk to them a lot more. I don't think I've seen Cristina since the Children's Theatre Company plays last November. I saw Anne most recently. It was two weeks ago.
Well readers. I have a staff meeting in about 20 minutes. That means that's it for the weekend report. This is Leena saying peace out blog folks.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Thoughts
Hello readers. So instead of a crazy update of the last two weeks, which didn't have too much to update about, I think I'm going to talk about what I think about stuff. I don't know what yet, so I warn you that I'm just going to let my stream of consciousness go where it wants to go.
So the first thing that comes to mind is the power of prayer. I think it's different for everyone. For me, prayer makes me feel at peace. For so many, it helps make decisions clearer or the path easier to see. Well, my problem is that I see things as signs especially after I pray. A lot of things are not irrelevant or coincidences, but have something to do with another problem or another situation that has nothing to do with the one I prayed about. I think the best example is when I prayed for sight. I had headaches for a month soon after. At first, it made sense that they were a sign. But once nothing physical was wrong, I figured it had to be stress. Thank God those are under control and I don't even have to use medicine. I just wish my eye would stop having so much pressure.
I think my frustration comes from formulaic prayer. When I was Muslim, you said literally the same prayer except for hopefully a different surah from the Qur'an five times a day. Now I use a prayer book. This isn't to say by any means that the prayers in the book aren't absolutely beautiful prayers. My thought process is that those prayers were personal to Baha'u'llah. I feel like they meant something to him because he created them. It's like when Jesus gave The Lord's Prayer. That's what it is. The Lord's Prayer. He said "After this manner pray ye..." Well, I see after this manner as in this way. But I think it's in this way like "Here's an example of the format I want you to use." I think that if I'm going to be in conversation with God, I should talk to God and ask him for what I need and thank him for what he's done for me. Is that self-centered? I don't think it is. I mean, I pray for other people because I want them to be okay. I am a questioning person and this has always made me wonder.
My next topic seems to be blindness and relationships. I've said this before, but I think blind people have the opportunity to really connect on a deeper level with people. Some of my former students talked about this a lot when they were here and forming couples. They said that in a normal situation they wouldn't have given each other the time of day. But blindness makes us see things differently. Yes, pun intended. I think I would have made a really shallow sighted person. From what Ana and My-key have said, I don't know that I would have even looked at Chris. I just asked them to describe him. Nothing bad. Anyway, I'm very thankful that mistake was never made. I'm not by any means saying we're free of all judgement because, speaking for myself, I'm not. There are some things that might cause me to judge a person unintentionally whether I have a right to or not. I think I know people on a deeper level though.
I really want to reflect more on stuff, but I have one more period of class and then I can go home. I've been playing Uno all day! Yikes. Well, I'll see everyone later. Peace and happiness to all.
Leena
So the first thing that comes to mind is the power of prayer. I think it's different for everyone. For me, prayer makes me feel at peace. For so many, it helps make decisions clearer or the path easier to see. Well, my problem is that I see things as signs especially after I pray. A lot of things are not irrelevant or coincidences, but have something to do with another problem or another situation that has nothing to do with the one I prayed about. I think the best example is when I prayed for sight. I had headaches for a month soon after. At first, it made sense that they were a sign. But once nothing physical was wrong, I figured it had to be stress. Thank God those are under control and I don't even have to use medicine. I just wish my eye would stop having so much pressure.
I think my frustration comes from formulaic prayer. When I was Muslim, you said literally the same prayer except for hopefully a different surah from the Qur'an five times a day. Now I use a prayer book. This isn't to say by any means that the prayers in the book aren't absolutely beautiful prayers. My thought process is that those prayers were personal to Baha'u'llah. I feel like they meant something to him because he created them. It's like when Jesus gave The Lord's Prayer. That's what it is. The Lord's Prayer. He said "After this manner pray ye..." Well, I see after this manner as in this way. But I think it's in this way like "Here's an example of the format I want you to use." I think that if I'm going to be in conversation with God, I should talk to God and ask him for what I need and thank him for what he's done for me. Is that self-centered? I don't think it is. I mean, I pray for other people because I want them to be okay. I am a questioning person and this has always made me wonder.
My next topic seems to be blindness and relationships. I've said this before, but I think blind people have the opportunity to really connect on a deeper level with people. Some of my former students talked about this a lot when they were here and forming couples. They said that in a normal situation they wouldn't have given each other the time of day. But blindness makes us see things differently. Yes, pun intended. I think I would have made a really shallow sighted person. From what Ana and My-key have said, I don't know that I would have even looked at Chris. I just asked them to describe him. Nothing bad. Anyway, I'm very thankful that mistake was never made. I'm not by any means saying we're free of all judgement because, speaking for myself, I'm not. There are some things that might cause me to judge a person unintentionally whether I have a right to or not. I think I know people on a deeper level though.
I really want to reflect more on stuff, but I have one more period of class and then I can go home. I've been playing Uno all day! Yikes. Well, I'll see everyone later. Peace and happiness to all.
Leena
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