Hello readers. So I know it's been a long time since I posted and I hope everyone's had a happy New Year. Let's see. My year until June was fairly uneventful. I looked everywhere for a job and really had no success. In June, I went to visit friends and ended up staying with them for a month and a half. I had and lost a singing contract because the guy was in Lancaster and taking the train is not something I'm incredibly fond of doing. Oh. But before that happened I went to Braille Beats, a fine arts intensive in Michigan where we did all kinds of music theory, played piano, sang, and learned about sound. We also had an art class. I made a big paper miche horse. I also did a dream catcher and a 3D collage with things like crystals, shells, and stuff covered with celophane. It was fun.
After that, I stayed with friends. It was originally because I was getting my hair done. I was only going to stay one night. Well, then it became that my friend Martha wanted to take me shopping for clothes and get a manicure and pedicure and we decided that I should stay to help plan the next Basic. I was the chief of group leaders. It was a blast. I ended up not wanting to go back home and they said they liked having me there. They sold there house and I went back home sometime in August.
Around the same time, I stopped going to church. The reason why is simple. Something spiritual is something that makes one's light shine. If something dims my light, it isn't spiritual and it's time to leave. I was told at church that if I didn't hate myself, personality, and know that all the choices I've made up to this point were wrong, I couldn't truly come to Christ and be a new creation. Um, wow. I took the Basic and PSI 7 and the leadership class and continued to work on myself to get out of that program. That's what I'd felt two years before last when I was struggling with horrible pain and anger with myself. I couldn't go there again and certainly not when church is something that either convicts or makes you think or else it's supposed to feel at minimum peaceful. I guess I just became angry and really sad.
I know I'm interrupting abruptly, yet I am going to a memorial for a friend so I'm heading out to my Access vehicle. I'll write the rest when I return.
Leena
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Meditations
Hello readers. I just want to say first off that I have just realized that what I say has been getting more notice than I believed. I'm grateful that it's having some kind of impact. I guess where I'd left off was just before staffing the basic seminar. It was one of the best I've had as a staffer. The students and staff were on fire. For the record, I absolutely love being a group leader. The guest event was a clear reflection of this seminar.
The next week was pretty uneventful except for said guest event. Charity and I worked as always. The week after went a bit weird. Monday was a rehearsal with a group called City Sound Singers. We go to rescue missions and sing to those in need as a ministry. On Tuesday, we had a performance. It was my first one, and it was great. Thursday was the fundraiser for President Obama's 2012 campaign. I'm not sure what to say about it. He is certainly an eloquent speaker and I'm grateful to know that he still hasn't forgotten people with disabilities in his agenda. Saturday's event was my uncle's fiancee's birthday party. That was when we started to notice a problem. Charity's head was tilted all the time. It continued on through Easter which I spent at my grandparents' house.
The next week I started classes at Braille. Yoga was supposed to be on Monday, but I decided to walk around and see if I could go teach piano there. Then I got stuck there because the press didn't have more books to check. I stayed and shredded papers. The next day I took Charity to the vet. They didn't know what the problem was but they guessed it was an ear infection. They recommended she didn't work. My mom picked us up and we stayed at her house for the rest of the week. Friday we went back to find no improvement. She still couldn't work and they wanted me to go back Tuesday. Sadly, on Saturday and Sunday when I went to church, I left her alone. She did fine though except for once when she got out of her crate.
The next week began with City Sound rehearsal again. Since we had a performance that week, I had to leave Charity alone. That was really hard to do. I believed, however, that she was improving. When I went, they told me she needed to see a neurologist. They had warned me before about the possibility of a brain tumor, but I kept her in my prayers/workshop and had a huge amount of people doing the same. I had to call the school and they made an appointment with me Saturday. Wednesday was church. Thursday, I asked my friend to pick her up so I could go to the performance. It was a fun, energetic performance. That night was one of my hardest though because Charity wasn't with me. Since I didn't have her, I went to Braille Friday so I could sing. I needed it badly. My best friend Tasha came over and spent the weekend. We went to the vet together because I haven't exactly been calm when going. I was glad but mad at the same time. The vet at GDA took one look at her and said exactly what it was she had. The vet out here didn't have a clue. She doesn't need to see a neurologist. It's just something that takes longer to recover. So she can't work until next Tuesday and that's when she has another followup. So this week so far has been a week of meditation. Monday I started school again. *Sigh.* I'm repeating classes because I thought I would protest and get out of them because it wasn't fair that I had to take classes that I'd been exempt from at other schools. Oops. Now I'm taking them again and determined to do really well. Yesterday was a very interesting day. I was thinking how bored I was, so I decided to do some tasks. I had been encouraged to discover my vision. Well, really, to write my vision. This was done by going into a meditative state and free writing. I wrote my five, ten, and twenty year visions and learned that my dreams are a lot bigger than I consciously believed. I figured out that I am definitely a Christian, no questions asked. I also learned that I am going to Principia and don't have to pay anything. I'd paid once and been unable to go and the money transferred. Last night, I began to apply to volunteer in orphanages overseas. I really want the teaching experience and the experience working with kids. Its just so exciting! Today's events haven't been very eventful. I've been relaxing at home preparing for church tis evening. That's all I have to do. Tomorrow I'm going to visit my grandparents. I can't wait. They always do crosswords with me and I always get great food and people to talk to. Charity can come with me and not have to work. Well, that's all for now. I believe I am completely current. Talk to everyone later.
Leena
The next week was pretty uneventful except for said guest event. Charity and I worked as always. The week after went a bit weird. Monday was a rehearsal with a group called City Sound Singers. We go to rescue missions and sing to those in need as a ministry. On Tuesday, we had a performance. It was my first one, and it was great. Thursday was the fundraiser for President Obama's 2012 campaign. I'm not sure what to say about it. He is certainly an eloquent speaker and I'm grateful to know that he still hasn't forgotten people with disabilities in his agenda. Saturday's event was my uncle's fiancee's birthday party. That was when we started to notice a problem. Charity's head was tilted all the time. It continued on through Easter which I spent at my grandparents' house.
The next week I started classes at Braille. Yoga was supposed to be on Monday, but I decided to walk around and see if I could go teach piano there. Then I got stuck there because the press didn't have more books to check. I stayed and shredded papers. The next day I took Charity to the vet. They didn't know what the problem was but they guessed it was an ear infection. They recommended she didn't work. My mom picked us up and we stayed at her house for the rest of the week. Friday we went back to find no improvement. She still couldn't work and they wanted me to go back Tuesday. Sadly, on Saturday and Sunday when I went to church, I left her alone. She did fine though except for once when she got out of her crate.
The next week began with City Sound rehearsal again. Since we had a performance that week, I had to leave Charity alone. That was really hard to do. I believed, however, that she was improving. When I went, they told me she needed to see a neurologist. They had warned me before about the possibility of a brain tumor, but I kept her in my prayers/workshop and had a huge amount of people doing the same. I had to call the school and they made an appointment with me Saturday. Wednesday was church. Thursday, I asked my friend to pick her up so I could go to the performance. It was a fun, energetic performance. That night was one of my hardest though because Charity wasn't with me. Since I didn't have her, I went to Braille Friday so I could sing. I needed it badly. My best friend Tasha came over and spent the weekend. We went to the vet together because I haven't exactly been calm when going. I was glad but mad at the same time. The vet at GDA took one look at her and said exactly what it was she had. The vet out here didn't have a clue. She doesn't need to see a neurologist. It's just something that takes longer to recover. So she can't work until next Tuesday and that's when she has another followup. So this week so far has been a week of meditation. Monday I started school again. *Sigh.* I'm repeating classes because I thought I would protest and get out of them because it wasn't fair that I had to take classes that I'd been exempt from at other schools. Oops. Now I'm taking them again and determined to do really well. Yesterday was a very interesting day. I was thinking how bored I was, so I decided to do some tasks. I had been encouraged to discover my vision. Well, really, to write my vision. This was done by going into a meditative state and free writing. I wrote my five, ten, and twenty year visions and learned that my dreams are a lot bigger than I consciously believed. I figured out that I am definitely a Christian, no questions asked. I also learned that I am going to Principia and don't have to pay anything. I'd paid once and been unable to go and the money transferred. Last night, I began to apply to volunteer in orphanages overseas. I really want the teaching experience and the experience working with kids. Its just so exciting! Today's events haven't been very eventful. I've been relaxing at home preparing for church tis evening. That's all I have to do. Tomorrow I'm going to visit my grandparents. I can't wait. They always do crosswords with me and I always get great food and people to talk to. Charity can come with me and not have to work. Well, that's all for now. I believe I am completely current. Talk to everyone later.
Leena
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Addressing Several Things
Hello readers. I know it's been an incredibly long time. LWSB was rather crazy. Little Rock was pleasant enough. I fell in love and got my heart broken, but I am better for it because I'm clearer on the kind of person I went to be with. He wasn't a compromise on my standards. He just didn't feel the same about me. Anyway, I graduated with four computer certifications and came home.
In January, I went to Guide Dogs of America. I went through the program and got my beautiful, loving dog Charity. She is the best dog ever and I loved her from moment 1. Guide dog school was really rigorous. We did a lot of walking. We also had lots of lectures. We'd often work for close to twelve hours. I'm glad I did it though.
When I came back, I started looking into going to Braille Institute. I enrolled in voice class and yoga class. Yoga is so relaxing. I also went through the process of looking for a job. Wow. Even with those certifications, it's pretty crazy. I did a lot of proofreading for Braille making sure their books were accurate. It was fun to read, and it was still a bit boring.
Soon into February, I came back to PSI Seminars which I wrote about before, and staffed the Basic seminar. It felt good getting back into the network and support. I'll right more about that topic later. I have a lot to say on the issue.
I've gotten to hang out with Tasha and my friend Liz. I went to meetings with the California Council of the Blind. In March, we had a church Missions Conference. It was wonderful. I also got to join the choir. Yay!
I got a job at the water company in March. I did a typing test and did better than 100 sighted applicants. Unfortunately, after I'd done the orientation to the building and the assistive technology people had installed the software, it was deemed incompatible and my job offer was rescinded. Needless to say, I wasn't happy. I got some people to help me look into complaining or talking to them about an equal opportunity case. I later got a job with a life insurance sales company and that turned out to be a disaster too. The leads they gave us were handwritten. That meant they wouldn't scan. So I'm still looking for a job.
Now I really want to talk about PSI Seminars. I'm staffing the basic again starting tomorrow because I think it's in incredible program if you use the tools. I did a little research and found some stuff that made me want to laugh and cry. People who didn't use the tools correctly blamed PSI Seminars for their problems with their marriages, lost homes, lost friends, and all kinds of other stuff. First, a person doesn't have to give up their current support for the support of the PSI network. It's an addition. If you have great support already, you shouldn't give it up. It's if you have support that is acting more like obstacles, meaning that they're telling you all the reasons you can't, then, yes, you should talk to those people and if it doesn't work, sure. You should have support who will encourage and lift you up. That's what it means. One thing people don't realize for some reason is that you can tell people stuff that goes on in the seminar. I knew a little bit before I went. I wouldn't tell everyone about all the exercises specifically, but I don't see an issue talking in general about what you can learn. I don't say will learn because what I absorb is up to me just is what you learn is up to you. One other comment. The company puts together guest events. Often, they are in conjunction with the graduations of students in the class. The students are told very clearly that it is both. If they choose to tell you it is a graduation, PSI isn't to blame. It's easy to put blame on something, but when a person acts a certain way, nobody can make them act a certain way. Nobody has that much power. Anyway, I'm done with my rants. I believe it's helped me a lot withseeing my full potential. Okay. That's pretty much the full update.
Oh. Nope. Saturday I had an audition to sing. I did really well, and yet was a school. Barbazan is a bit misleading. I chose to go even though some friends warned me that it was just for money. I was told I'd be auditioning for a showcase and that I'd either be in the showcase or the classes. Oh well. I know I sang and acted well. I had great support with me. Okay. Now I'm really done. I'll keep updating on this thing. Again, sorry it's been so long.
Peace, love, and blessings,
Leena and Charity
In January, I went to Guide Dogs of America. I went through the program and got my beautiful, loving dog Charity. She is the best dog ever and I loved her from moment 1. Guide dog school was really rigorous. We did a lot of walking. We also had lots of lectures. We'd often work for close to twelve hours. I'm glad I did it though.
When I came back, I started looking into going to Braille Institute. I enrolled in voice class and yoga class. Yoga is so relaxing. I also went through the process of looking for a job. Wow. Even with those certifications, it's pretty crazy. I did a lot of proofreading for Braille making sure their books were accurate. It was fun to read, and it was still a bit boring.
Soon into February, I came back to PSI Seminars which I wrote about before, and staffed the Basic seminar. It felt good getting back into the network and support. I'll right more about that topic later. I have a lot to say on the issue.
I've gotten to hang out with Tasha and my friend Liz. I went to meetings with the California Council of the Blind. In March, we had a church Missions Conference. It was wonderful. I also got to join the choir. Yay!
I got a job at the water company in March. I did a typing test and did better than 100 sighted applicants. Unfortunately, after I'd done the orientation to the building and the assistive technology people had installed the software, it was deemed incompatible and my job offer was rescinded. Needless to say, I wasn't happy. I got some people to help me look into complaining or talking to them about an equal opportunity case. I later got a job with a life insurance sales company and that turned out to be a disaster too. The leads they gave us were handwritten. That meant they wouldn't scan. So I'm still looking for a job.
Now I really want to talk about PSI Seminars. I'm staffing the basic again starting tomorrow because I think it's in incredible program if you use the tools. I did a little research and found some stuff that made me want to laugh and cry. People who didn't use the tools correctly blamed PSI Seminars for their problems with their marriages, lost homes, lost friends, and all kinds of other stuff. First, a person doesn't have to give up their current support for the support of the PSI network. It's an addition. If you have great support already, you shouldn't give it up. It's if you have support that is acting more like obstacles, meaning that they're telling you all the reasons you can't, then, yes, you should talk to those people and if it doesn't work, sure. You should have support who will encourage and lift you up. That's what it means. One thing people don't realize for some reason is that you can tell people stuff that goes on in the seminar. I knew a little bit before I went. I wouldn't tell everyone about all the exercises specifically, but I don't see an issue talking in general about what you can learn. I don't say will learn because what I absorb is up to me just is what you learn is up to you. One other comment. The company puts together guest events. Often, they are in conjunction with the graduations of students in the class. The students are told very clearly that it is both. If they choose to tell you it is a graduation, PSI isn't to blame. It's easy to put blame on something, but when a person acts a certain way, nobody can make them act a certain way. Nobody has that much power. Anyway, I'm done with my rants. I believe it's helped me a lot withseeing my full potential. Okay. That's pretty much the full update.
Oh. Nope. Saturday I had an audition to sing. I did really well, and yet was a school. Barbazan is a bit misleading. I chose to go even though some friends warned me that it was just for money. I was told I'd be auditioning for a showcase and that I'd either be in the showcase or the classes. Oh well. I know I sang and acted well. I had great support with me. Okay. Now I'm really done. I'll keep updating on this thing. Again, sorry it's been so long.
Peace, love, and blessings,
Leena and Charity
Saturday, July 17, 2010
In the Land of the Living
Hello readers. Yes, it's been forever, about two months since I've posted anything here. From what I remember, nothing much really happened for the rest of May. It's all a blur though. It was June when things started to get really horrible.
June 3 was my guide dog interview. One of the first questions the man asked me was if I took medical marijuana. I was horrified. Why on earth would I be asked that question? I said no and he told me that there was some that he could see. I lost my temper because I was so upset. We did the interview and I did really well. I walked to the bank which is kinda far. After that I came home and argued with darius before we went to Lancaster for Mom's birthday and Nicole's graduation. It was okay except that our relationship had taken on the quality of a nightmare. I know you're reading this, but I know you'd admit the same thing. Things went from bad to worse and I left the house for a while.
Sunday things calmed back down and were at least back to seminormal. We didn't have any arguments the rest of the week. I went to my grandma's house for two or three days. We went to the BSC karaoke fundraiser. It was a lot of fun. I enjoyed singing and seeing everyone again. We came home and relaxed. Sunday we went to church and cooked a lot. I did the stuff that wasn't on the stove. I also finally was successful with the casserole that I think I wrote about. The one that spilled all over the floor.
Monday we went to Kristin's house. Then darius left to Georgia. I cried for a very long time. From that point, insomnia had me in a death grip. I didn't know what to do with myself. I rarely ate, I didn't sleep, and I even missed a job interview. Church kept me sane.
Soon after, my counselor told me to get ready to go to Arkansas. I'd be leaving in two weeks!
I was absolutely terrified. All I could think of was Louisiana. What would happen if I returned to the South? Would I be triggered again? Flashbacks, insomnia, another incident, all kinds of things ran through my head in a horrible procession. I tried to hang out with all my local friends before I had to leave. Sadly, there were at least three people who I never got to see. I was sad because I didn't even get to talk to one of them. *Sigh*.
I arrived in Little Rock on Tuesday, July 6 at 9 something at night. I felt terrified. I was shown around the building which made me totally confused. They saved a plate for me which I thought was very kind. My roommate turned out to be a great friend. She and I both like country music and have been known to stay up at night talking about everything. My insomnia has also released its hold. It feels good to be able to get up and do things instead of sitting around all day every day with nothing but the Internet and the TV.
Classes started out scary, but I've tested out of most of them. I'm done with keyboarding, Braille, Math, Mobility, and Techniques of Daily Living. I get to work on the switchboard and answer phones next week. I am also still cooking and doing the last bit of assistive technology.
The other part of this experience is deciding on a career. I came in ready to start the customer service program. They also have a program with the IRS where people are guaranteed a job. I am really hoping to switch. I think it's getting to be time to leave L.A. I'm sick of the smoke, smog, and weed that permeates the air. It's not a smell thing. I am breathing a lot of it in and I don't like the energy there. I like Monrovia, but not L.A.
We also have recreational events. We did karaoke last week. Saturday we went to the movies. I saw Toy Story 3 with some friends. Thursdays and Sundays we have ceramics. Today we are going to see Hair, a musical. Yay!
I'll try to keep everyone more updated on what's happening here. I'll talk to everyone later.
Peace and happiness to all,
Leena
June 3 was my guide dog interview. One of the first questions the man asked me was if I took medical marijuana. I was horrified. Why on earth would I be asked that question? I said no and he told me that there was some that he could see. I lost my temper because I was so upset. We did the interview and I did really well. I walked to the bank which is kinda far. After that I came home and argued with darius before we went to Lancaster for Mom's birthday and Nicole's graduation. It was okay except that our relationship had taken on the quality of a nightmare. I know you're reading this, but I know you'd admit the same thing. Things went from bad to worse and I left the house for a while.
Sunday things calmed back down and were at least back to seminormal. We didn't have any arguments the rest of the week. I went to my grandma's house for two or three days. We went to the BSC karaoke fundraiser. It was a lot of fun. I enjoyed singing and seeing everyone again. We came home and relaxed. Sunday we went to church and cooked a lot. I did the stuff that wasn't on the stove. I also finally was successful with the casserole that I think I wrote about. The one that spilled all over the floor.
Monday we went to Kristin's house. Then darius left to Georgia. I cried for a very long time. From that point, insomnia had me in a death grip. I didn't know what to do with myself. I rarely ate, I didn't sleep, and I even missed a job interview. Church kept me sane.
Soon after, my counselor told me to get ready to go to Arkansas. I'd be leaving in two weeks!
I was absolutely terrified. All I could think of was Louisiana. What would happen if I returned to the South? Would I be triggered again? Flashbacks, insomnia, another incident, all kinds of things ran through my head in a horrible procession. I tried to hang out with all my local friends before I had to leave. Sadly, there were at least three people who I never got to see. I was sad because I didn't even get to talk to one of them. *Sigh*.
I arrived in Little Rock on Tuesday, July 6 at 9 something at night. I felt terrified. I was shown around the building which made me totally confused. They saved a plate for me which I thought was very kind. My roommate turned out to be a great friend. She and I both like country music and have been known to stay up at night talking about everything. My insomnia has also released its hold. It feels good to be able to get up and do things instead of sitting around all day every day with nothing but the Internet and the TV.
Classes started out scary, but I've tested out of most of them. I'm done with keyboarding, Braille, Math, Mobility, and Techniques of Daily Living. I get to work on the switchboard and answer phones next week. I am also still cooking and doing the last bit of assistive technology.
The other part of this experience is deciding on a career. I came in ready to start the customer service program. They also have a program with the IRS where people are guaranteed a job. I am really hoping to switch. I think it's getting to be time to leave L.A. I'm sick of the smoke, smog, and weed that permeates the air. It's not a smell thing. I am breathing a lot of it in and I don't like the energy there. I like Monrovia, but not L.A.
We also have recreational events. We did karaoke last week. Saturday we went to the movies. I saw Toy Story 3 with some friends. Thursdays and Sundays we have ceramics. Today we are going to see Hair, a musical. Yay!
I'll try to keep everyone more updated on what's happening here. I'll talk to everyone later.
Peace and happiness to all,
Leena
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
A Ling-awaited Update
Okay. Hello everyone. I read that I was supposed to post the day I went into JBA, but I was a bit devastated. Yes, I lost my job. I wasn't even allowed to give my statement. They claimed to have enough information from the students and the intern to say for sure that I was sleeping. Oh well. It's their loss. Now I need to think of what's been going on for the last month.
Soon after that, I started posting my resume on all kinds of job boards. I really haven't gotten any job offers that were in a decent commuting range. I really don't want to take two Access cabs each way to get to my job.
I think I'm gonna mention the good things. There haven't been too many bad things happening apart from arguments with a certain person. Anyway, one thing that happened is that I'm already back on SSI. It happened so fast! I took my papers in last week and got this month's check on Monday. I didn't even realize I had it. It was direct deposited. I've been going to Ruhi and mentoring as usual. I don't want to give up my traditional activities especially when the only money tey cost is to go on Access.
A couple weekends ago, I went to visit my parents. I hate that town! Lancaster is boring! Anyway, I went for Mother's Day and to get help applying for unemployment. Well, I qualified! Haha. JBA has to pay me.
Another good thing that happened is that I found a church. I know i said that before, but to be honest, part of the problem there was that one of the guys that worked at the church was hitting on me. It was awkward because he'd sit next to me every week and ask me out on several occasions. The church I go to now is a Baptist church. I can walk to it. It's right around the corner. For once, the pastor makes sense. I am still not sure on Original Sin, but at least he could explain it so I could understand why it's believed. His teachings about Jesus and about daily life really make sense. I've been going for a while. I missed today because I had to go to a conference call. It was about the hospitality that we cohosted at convention.
On Saturday, I went to a casting call for a gameshow. I don't know yet whether I qualified, but he said I was phenomenal. I'm giving it till the end of the week before I give up hope on it. He said I'd hear within a couple of days. It's a trivia game. I hope I can play.
Last week, we celebrated Darius's birthday. I took him to Tony Roma's. It was pretty good food. I also bought him an Mp3 player. We can't seem to get it to work. I don't know what I'm doing though. I also got myself a printer. I love my bank's reward points.
That's the main cool stuff that happened this month so far. I really felt that I needed to update. I've been feeling a bit hypocritical asking Kristin and Celine to update more when I look at my own blogging habits. Sorry.
One more thing. My stream of consciousness doesn't always flow in order. I went to the National Holistic Institute today. It's a massage therapy school. It teaches all different kinds of massage. It would be about 8 months to a year of training. I just don't like the schedule for the next upcoming class. It's Tuesday and thursday 6-10. That I can deal with except the mentoring program which I don't want to break my commitment to. The third day of class is Sunday from 8:45-5:45. It's great, except that I'd miss both church services. Wednesday's service isn't really the same as Sunday's services which are amazing. I might wait longer or go to the morning classes even if they're faster paced. I've always been a fast learner, right? Anyway, I'm going to an appointment with the Department of rehab tomorrow to discuss my job training options. I have an info folder that I'll take to her and see what she has to say.
Okay. I think it's time to go now. Just a shout-out of congratulations to Celine for being done with her finals and good luck to Cristina on her last one. Anyone else who has finals, good luck to you too. I just don't know about them. Take care and peace be with you all.
Leena
Soon after that, I started posting my resume on all kinds of job boards. I really haven't gotten any job offers that were in a decent commuting range. I really don't want to take two Access cabs each way to get to my job.
I think I'm gonna mention the good things. There haven't been too many bad things happening apart from arguments with a certain person. Anyway, one thing that happened is that I'm already back on SSI. It happened so fast! I took my papers in last week and got this month's check on Monday. I didn't even realize I had it. It was direct deposited. I've been going to Ruhi and mentoring as usual. I don't want to give up my traditional activities especially when the only money tey cost is to go on Access.
A couple weekends ago, I went to visit my parents. I hate that town! Lancaster is boring! Anyway, I went for Mother's Day and to get help applying for unemployment. Well, I qualified! Haha. JBA has to pay me.
Another good thing that happened is that I found a church. I know i said that before, but to be honest, part of the problem there was that one of the guys that worked at the church was hitting on me. It was awkward because he'd sit next to me every week and ask me out on several occasions. The church I go to now is a Baptist church. I can walk to it. It's right around the corner. For once, the pastor makes sense. I am still not sure on Original Sin, but at least he could explain it so I could understand why it's believed. His teachings about Jesus and about daily life really make sense. I've been going for a while. I missed today because I had to go to a conference call. It was about the hospitality that we cohosted at convention.
On Saturday, I went to a casting call for a gameshow. I don't know yet whether I qualified, but he said I was phenomenal. I'm giving it till the end of the week before I give up hope on it. He said I'd hear within a couple of days. It's a trivia game. I hope I can play.
Last week, we celebrated Darius's birthday. I took him to Tony Roma's. It was pretty good food. I also bought him an Mp3 player. We can't seem to get it to work. I don't know what I'm doing though. I also got myself a printer. I love my bank's reward points.
That's the main cool stuff that happened this month so far. I really felt that I needed to update. I've been feeling a bit hypocritical asking Kristin and Celine to update more when I look at my own blogging habits. Sorry.
One more thing. My stream of consciousness doesn't always flow in order. I went to the National Holistic Institute today. It's a massage therapy school. It teaches all different kinds of massage. It would be about 8 months to a year of training. I just don't like the schedule for the next upcoming class. It's Tuesday and thursday 6-10. That I can deal with except the mentoring program which I don't want to break my commitment to. The third day of class is Sunday from 8:45-5:45. It's great, except that I'd miss both church services. Wednesday's service isn't really the same as Sunday's services which are amazing. I might wait longer or go to the morning classes even if they're faster paced. I've always been a fast learner, right? Anyway, I'm going to an appointment with the Department of rehab tomorrow to discuss my job training options. I have an info folder that I'll take to her and see what she has to say.
Okay. I think it's time to go now. Just a shout-out of congratulations to Celine for being done with her finals and good luck to Cristina on her last one. Anyone else who has finals, good luck to you too. I just don't know about them. Take care and peace be with you all.
Leena
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Keep Me in Prayer
Hello readers. I'm sorry that it's been so long. Not much has been going on. April has just mainly been work and spending time with Darius. Well, there are a couple things of note.
The first was CCB convention. That was a fun weekend away from work. I got there late Thursday and saw the end of the board meeting. Then I went to hospitality where I was supposed to co-sponsor and wasn't allowed to help. That was really frustrating! Friday I overslept and missed a really important meeting. *Sigh.* I went to look at the exhibits and it was interesting. I had lunch and went to the general session. It was pretty cool. Then I went to the President's Dinner and we talked about the stereotypes associated with blindness. The next session changed my life.
At the session, one of the parts was an election. Sadly, one of the board members had passed away before his term finished. He was a really nice person from what I recall. I didn't know him very well unfortunately. Well, the election took place. I and three others were nominated. I was so scared. I really wanted to be on the board. In the first round, two were nominated. I and the other man were separated by half of a vote! We had another runoff. I won by a lot of votes! I couldn't believe it. It was wonderful! I'm officially on the state board.
Saturday was the BSC meeting. That was pretty exciting in itself. We had three speakers. Two were fabulous and one was a little full of himself. I won't mention any names. We elected a new board. Someone actually came from the blind California to cover our meeting. What an honor! Then I went and did the chairing duties for resolutions. It's really interesting to do. We were all insane. You have to have a sense of humor. We actually finished earlier than usual. I went to Governmental Affairs and the banquet. At the banquet, membership awards were presented. We won an award for percentage of growth. It was amazing! BSC is awesome! Hospitality was good too. I actually got to help!
Sunday I went to the devotional service and sang. General session was fun too. I was able to co-chair and do some of the resolutions. They were impressed by my reading ability. I went on the Greyhound which was a long ride.
I went back to work and did well. This week was bad though. I went to work on Monday as usual. I went to the staff meeting and third and fourth periods. At the end of fourth period, I was called into the office. I was really worried. I always hate going in there. She said that a lot of people said I was sleeping during third period. I said no. It turned into an investigation. I haven't been at work for the last three days. I miss my students. I was originally supposed to be back at 8 A.M. tomorrow. She called this morning saying that I need to come back at 2 P.M. What the heck does that mean? I know I have to meet with HR tomorrow because they want to take my statement. I just hope that that's simply the first time Carlos has available. This is where the title of the post comes into play. Please keep me in prayer. I've been on three job interviews and two went horribly. They said that a blind person wouldn't qualify. The last interview was a lot of fun and I think it went really well. I'm just waiting to hear back from him. I'll know by tomorrow. Well, I'll know whether I have a second interview. Please keep me in your prayers. I'm going crazy here. I keep thinking about the whole "to think is to create" and I think that I'll still be working there. It's hard because Darius keeps voicing those damn doubts in my mind and it's making me more nervous. I know God will help me. I just don't know how and when. Think some good thoughts and prayers for me. I'll post again tomorrow.
Peace and love to all,
Leena
The first was CCB convention. That was a fun weekend away from work. I got there late Thursday and saw the end of the board meeting. Then I went to hospitality where I was supposed to co-sponsor and wasn't allowed to help. That was really frustrating! Friday I overslept and missed a really important meeting. *Sigh.* I went to look at the exhibits and it was interesting. I had lunch and went to the general session. It was pretty cool. Then I went to the President's Dinner and we talked about the stereotypes associated with blindness. The next session changed my life.
At the session, one of the parts was an election. Sadly, one of the board members had passed away before his term finished. He was a really nice person from what I recall. I didn't know him very well unfortunately. Well, the election took place. I and three others were nominated. I was so scared. I really wanted to be on the board. In the first round, two were nominated. I and the other man were separated by half of a vote! We had another runoff. I won by a lot of votes! I couldn't believe it. It was wonderful! I'm officially on the state board.
Saturday was the BSC meeting. That was pretty exciting in itself. We had three speakers. Two were fabulous and one was a little full of himself. I won't mention any names. We elected a new board. Someone actually came from the blind California to cover our meeting. What an honor! Then I went and did the chairing duties for resolutions. It's really interesting to do. We were all insane. You have to have a sense of humor. We actually finished earlier than usual. I went to Governmental Affairs and the banquet. At the banquet, membership awards were presented. We won an award for percentage of growth. It was amazing! BSC is awesome! Hospitality was good too. I actually got to help!
Sunday I went to the devotional service and sang. General session was fun too. I was able to co-chair and do some of the resolutions. They were impressed by my reading ability. I went on the Greyhound which was a long ride.
I went back to work and did well. This week was bad though. I went to work on Monday as usual. I went to the staff meeting and third and fourth periods. At the end of fourth period, I was called into the office. I was really worried. I always hate going in there. She said that a lot of people said I was sleeping during third period. I said no. It turned into an investigation. I haven't been at work for the last three days. I miss my students. I was originally supposed to be back at 8 A.M. tomorrow. She called this morning saying that I need to come back at 2 P.M. What the heck does that mean? I know I have to meet with HR tomorrow because they want to take my statement. I just hope that that's simply the first time Carlos has available. This is where the title of the post comes into play. Please keep me in prayer. I've been on three job interviews and two went horribly. They said that a blind person wouldn't qualify. The last interview was a lot of fun and I think it went really well. I'm just waiting to hear back from him. I'll know by tomorrow. Well, I'll know whether I have a second interview. Please keep me in your prayers. I'm going crazy here. I keep thinking about the whole "to think is to create" and I think that I'll still be working there. It's hard because Darius keeps voicing those damn doubts in my mind and it's making me more nervous. I know God will help me. I just don't know how and when. Think some good thoughts and prayers for me. I'll post again tomorrow.
Peace and love to all,
Leena
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Wow!
Hello readers. So my life has been an emotional roller coaster recently. Thank God it's on the up side this time. Let's see. What were last week's events. Well, not much. I don't really remember Tuesday all that much except that I was at work. Wednesday was O&M. It went very well.
Thursday was one of the more eventful days, and even that wasn't all that eventful. It was April Fools day and I wanted to pull pranks really bad. I needed to laugh. I was going to play a prank and say I'd gotten a record deal, but I decided that if thinking is creating, I didn't want to create that it was only a prank. It's a good thing too apparently. Anyway, the students pulled a prank that they got yelled at for. Honestly, I feel like April Fools is equal and nondiscriminating as far as pranks are concerned. At least it's supposed to be. Even those who lack a sense of humor are "targets." I got Darius, but more on that later.
After school, I went and donated blood. That's always one of those experiences where you can really make a difference. I had a lot of fun after the donation. It happened quickly and Access was late. I sang with the radio and they turned it off and asked me to sing a few songs. They really liked it. Then I went home. Darius had ordered Mediterranean food which was quite good. No, wait, That day was the Chinese food. I remember because I took the leftovers to lunch and spilled sauce everywhere! Anyway, his friend was already on the phone trying to prank me. It was rather dumb to be honest. I told him that I had quit my job because of a crazily unrealistic goal. We were making sure we could pay rent and all that so he got worried and a little mad at me. He laughed at the prank though.
Friday was finally the recording day. The music was finished, thanks to Kahlil, and Kristin and Kahlil were both there to help with the recording. I don't know that I can say a big enough thank you! I finished my part and just had to wait for the mixing. I was totally excited.
Saturday was a business training and then the rest of the day was free. I like free days on occasion, however, I usually get bored with them at some point.
Sunday was of course my family's Easter celebration. We had our dinner and the little kids did an Easter egg hunt. We had dessert and Darius and I played Uno. Then we went and watched TV until Access came. In the middle of that, we had an earthquake. Apparently, it was centered in Mexico, but it was big enough that we all felt it.
Monday was Ruhi and I got the finished product of my song. I was so excited! Kristin even did backup vocals. I sent it to Grapevine Records and waited.
Yesterday was starting out like any other day. I was able to teach a couple of periods which is hard sometimes because most of them are advanced. When I didn't have students, I checked my e-mail. The record company had e-mailed me back. They want me on their label!!! I wanted to scream, but I didn't because I was at work. I am still on that emotional high. I can't believe it even though I see it happening right before me.
I also went to mentoring yesterday. The mentees were there except for a few who had dropped out of the program. Apparently, mine was one of those. Seeing everyone was really good though. I got some potato tacos to take home. Now I'm back at work. I've gotta go teach now. Take care and peace and happiness to all.
Leena
Thursday was one of the more eventful days, and even that wasn't all that eventful. It was April Fools day and I wanted to pull pranks really bad. I needed to laugh. I was going to play a prank and say I'd gotten a record deal, but I decided that if thinking is creating, I didn't want to create that it was only a prank. It's a good thing too apparently. Anyway, the students pulled a prank that they got yelled at for. Honestly, I feel like April Fools is equal and nondiscriminating as far as pranks are concerned. At least it's supposed to be. Even those who lack a sense of humor are "targets." I got Darius, but more on that later.
After school, I went and donated blood. That's always one of those experiences where you can really make a difference. I had a lot of fun after the donation. It happened quickly and Access was late. I sang with the radio and they turned it off and asked me to sing a few songs. They really liked it. Then I went home. Darius had ordered Mediterranean food which was quite good. No, wait, That day was the Chinese food. I remember because I took the leftovers to lunch and spilled sauce everywhere! Anyway, his friend was already on the phone trying to prank me. It was rather dumb to be honest. I told him that I had quit my job because of a crazily unrealistic goal. We were making sure we could pay rent and all that so he got worried and a little mad at me. He laughed at the prank though.
Friday was finally the recording day. The music was finished, thanks to Kahlil, and Kristin and Kahlil were both there to help with the recording. I don't know that I can say a big enough thank you! I finished my part and just had to wait for the mixing. I was totally excited.
Saturday was a business training and then the rest of the day was free. I like free days on occasion, however, I usually get bored with them at some point.
Sunday was of course my family's Easter celebration. We had our dinner and the little kids did an Easter egg hunt. We had dessert and Darius and I played Uno. Then we went and watched TV until Access came. In the middle of that, we had an earthquake. Apparently, it was centered in Mexico, but it was big enough that we all felt it.
Monday was Ruhi and I got the finished product of my song. I was so excited! Kristin even did backup vocals. I sent it to Grapevine Records and waited.
Yesterday was starting out like any other day. I was able to teach a couple of periods which is hard sometimes because most of them are advanced. When I didn't have students, I checked my e-mail. The record company had e-mailed me back. They want me on their label!!! I wanted to scream, but I didn't because I was at work. I am still on that emotional high. I can't believe it even though I see it happening right before me.
I also went to mentoring yesterday. The mentees were there except for a few who had dropped out of the program. Apparently, mine was one of those. Seeing everyone was really good though. I got some potato tacos to take home. Now I'm back at work. I've gotta go teach now. Take care and peace and happiness to all.
Leena
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